Wednesday, May 09, 2007
depression and stress is a sign of modern society
Okay. I'm so so so apologetic about the fact that this is going to be yet another band post. Sorry la...whenever the monster SYF approaches, lots of mundane but dramatic issues invariably crop up.
Everyone's working hard (I hope), but tuning remains quite a problem. I mean, the bassoons!!! @#$%^&*! They have been out since the ancient Aztechs existed. The trumpets!! Never fails to make me search for lard. The clarinets!!! Oh my lard oh my lard oh my lard. I don't claim to be perfectly in tune of course, but at least I
make an effort to correct the tuning. I felt so uber irritated when people didn't do ANYTHING when they were so obviously out of tune. I don't care!!! Just put down the bliddy instrument and adjust the damn slide man!!!! *agitated agitated* Lin Sheng was visibly frustrated today, not to mention pissed, and trust me, he NEVER gets pissed.
He must be under tons of stress!!!! Xinling and I were going home from band today...walking along this corridor in school...when Lin Sheng came up behind us. His shirt was all tucked out, and he was stooped in exhaustion, and on his face was this look of total stress. Just the sight of him plodding heavily along the corridor made me so sad!!!!! I felt so guilty and sad that time and time again, we have disappointed him...Xinling grabbed him and comforted him somewhat...I really really hope he cheers up, cos well. He's the first conductor that inspires his band to LOVE him. And not to mention the fact that he's the nicest person I've ever met, who's not afraid to laugh at himself. He loves TJ band, and we love him, but sometimes I feel that none of us are reciprocrating the amount of work he puts into helping us. Nothing can possibly begin to express how bad I felt when I saw him so tired.
On a equally touching note...WAI NGAI wrote words of encouragement to every single one of our 4 man 1 lady section. (Haha) SO touching la!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHA....we didn't expect him to be so....Ya la. He's so not a 'write encouraging note' person.
But enough about band...today's the first time in a very long time that I was really happy and relaxed. Zhuangs and I really really wanted to study after Civics...and were all settled down outside the staff room to study, when Desmond, Wen Yang, Daniel, Shaun and Clovis came along. So duh they stopped to disturb us. Of course, I'm sure that that wasn't their original purpose in stopping; we hadn't even taken out anything to study yet, but still. We spent the next period just laughing and being stupid, doing those pointless mind-boggling um...dunno how to say la...fuzzy wuzzy and the mrt game...all those stupid figure 'em out stuff. It was really really fun laughing over our frustration at not being able to figure out the secret behind these brain-busting stuff. It was fun!!!! Thanks guys. I've never been so happy and relaxed since forever.
Things are happening that are tense these days. Negative feelings flying around and all that...I'm happy just to survive. What with SYF, tests, problems with some people's attitude towards life, there is only one phrase that can articulate my feelings right now - OH MY LARD.
9:29 PM
;and the DODO has the final say.
