Sunday, April 22, 2007
I am NOT well.
I'm SICK. Finally. I can't belive it. I'm in for yet another long period of sniffling and killing of trees (by the use of an obscene amount of tissue paper). Damn. Thank goodness I rarely get sick. Cos when I do, I REALLY get sick. For a week or so.
I'm SICK.
What a time to be SICK.
I'm going to sound all stuck on the flute.
DAMN. It sucks to be SICK.
Anyhow...SYF's in exactly 19 days, and I still can't bring myself to desire that bliddy GWH. Beacuse, frankly,
I don't really want it. I don't want this SYF at all. BUT, I've been working and practising my ass OFF, cos I want this GWH for other people. I don't think you guys will understand what the hell I'm babbling about la...but basically, I'd work, and get everything perfect, to enable this band to get their GWH for a number of people.
1. for
Kejian, cos he's so damn bliddy pro, I'd kill myself if I spoil his tuning, tone, technique or whatever. I mean, he's nearly perfect already, and if I spoil that, I'd never forgive myself. I know HE wants that GWH, even if I don't. (I want TJ to do well la, but the results of the SYF has never affected me the way it does for others. In every SYF that I've been in, I was only happy cos other people were happy. I wasn't ecstatic for myself. Dunno, maybe I'm just weird.)
2. for
Lin Sheng cos he really loves this band a whole bliddy lot, and I'd hate to take advantage of his niceness and disappoint him.
Well, that's it really. And me?? The only thing I want to do for myself is to prove to myself that I can make it. As in, get all the running notes down to pat, and all the other disgusting stuff right. Like the 4th bar of C, where somehow, my high E flat is always, always flatter than Kejian's, and I think he's getting sorta pissed about it. )': I shall correct that okay Kejian! I shall. Don't worry. I've already managed to run those disgusting runs properly. HEH. Not as nicely done as Kejian la, but still. I can hear every note quite clearly. I think. Working working working...
Oh ya, and I'd work at it for
Wai Ngai as well, cos he's been so patient with me and my disgusting sounds.
1:01 PM
;and the DODO has the final say.
